What Does t&d Look Like?

So, I’ve been asked what a t&d session looks like between Locks and I. I’ve been trying to decide how best to answer this question and have come to the conclusion that our t&d can be best described within two general categories. There are a lot of different things we do for t&d so describing what this isn’t the easiest thing to put into words. The first category I am going to call maintenance t&d (MTD). t&d when done daily like we do for these longish chastity assignments tends to lead to certain common activities or rituals.

We of course did not set out to establish these rituals but when you do something daily routines develop. For example, we have found that our MTD sessions tend to last almost exactly 20 minutes every time. We do not set a timer or anything but a certain level of efficiency has set in. As of this moment we are 28 days, 16 hours and 54 minutes into this assignment (not that I am counting or anything). During that time we have had over 40 t&d sessions. I’d guess over half of those were MTD sessions. So far we are 89 days into 2017. of those 89 days I have been in active chastity assignments for almost 69 of those days. So yes, there has been a lot of t&d the two of us have been doing this year.  Obviously not all t&d sessions can be some crazy scene so rituals set in to maintain these daily t&d sessions.

So, what does MTD look like? Well, It’s simple in concept. For the most part I am always naked and laying on my back in the bed with Locks sitting crossed legged next to me. For these sessions the penis is almost always caged. We have a “personal massager” that Locks favors during these sessions. I wear mostly my steelworxx Steelheart cage which has just a small pee hole in an otherwise fully enclose cage (I hardly ever get to see the damn thing never mind touch it!)  The tip of the massager fits sorta well to the small opening at the bottom of the cage (or top of the cage if I’m laying on my back).  This sends a very pleasurable vibration though out the entire cage. We typically start off with using this to get an erection going.  At the beginning of my assignments this takes a little more time to achieve but the longer the assignment goes the less time it takes to get me hard, go figure…

Once I am as hard as my cage allows then things progress. Next normally comes the nipple play as Locks “jacks” me off with my cage, or she edges me with the massager first.  Locks leans down and starts sucking and biting on my nearest nipple (which most often is my left nipple) as she grabs a hold of my cage and starts to pull it up and down. This leads to a couple of edges normally. Next tends to be the ball pulling and slapping, though sometimes the ball busting starts things off too.  By this point I tend to drift off into non-orgasmic bliss and articulating the ritual is a bit fuzzy.  Clothes pins on the nipples are a common addition to MTD. As this assignment has progressed we have learned that I have really been enjoying ball abuse, especially when Locks grabs both of them in her hand and yanks and pulls them away from my body.  I really enjoy them being pulled on, especially from behind, pulling them between my legs.  Yup, I like that. Want them pulled on even harder. Yup, me on my hands and knees with my balls pulled back behind me. Stretched tight, vulnerable… We also learned that I can take a pretty good caning on my balls. That was agonizingly lovely…

But I digress.. Phew.. okay.. MTD… In the beginning of these assignments I don’t think 20 minutes really was enough but now that we are far into my third assignment 20 minutes seems to be the magic amount of time for a MTD session to last. It really is kind of funny. 18 minutes isn’t quite enough, 22 minutes and I end up oozing (or “making a mess”, sometimes at the level of a ruined orgasm which we try to avoid).  We have learned that “oozing” does tend to give me a bit of release so we try to avoid it. Though the further we go the time frame from edging to orgasm gets smaller. Locks is good at reading me but “accidents” do happen.

For the most part of it, this sums of MTD for us. There are outliers. There has been a time or two that cage free MTD has happened though only when it coincides with inspection. In addition or MTD session tend to happen from Sunday though Wednesday. My days off from work typically are Friday and Saturday and Locks works Monday through Friday. This leads to what I am calling our exotic t&d (ETD) sessions to occur more on the weekend time frame (I know, totally shocking). When it comes to ETD, well.. I think that will be best for another post because there is so much more to cover. Things like strap-on use (both ways), hours of bondage, hours of impact play, play parties and so much more.. I think diving into all that will take several more posts to try and share.. So, on one final note to leave on… goodnight! 🙂


To Know, Or Not to Know…

Prior to the start of the most recent chastity assignment we had discussed incorporating me not knowing the end date for the assignment. I have to admit, not knowing did sound kind of hot. With this in mind, Locks decided that we would use this tactic this time around. Trial and error if nothing else. Not knowing does appeal to me. I was told that the timeframe that was decided on is going to push me. Knowing that does excite me on several levels. It has only been a few days into this assignment. As of this writing it has been 4 days and 21 hours. Not really long enough for the full effect to really take effect. But not knowing the end date at first did seem to propel those feelings of denial. Experience has shown that it often takes a good week after an orgasm for the effects of denial to take hold.

At this point I am still within this first week so my feelings on all this may change as time goes on. To begin with not knowing was very appealing. As these short days have progressed another aspect as crept into my mind. I am more used to not knowing a release date, not knowing when i am going to cum again than I am knowing that date. Once we started doing these chastity assignments, prior to that it my cage free time (and when I came) was all random and unknown to me. Since we started doing these assignments, I knew the end dates but in-between I an still caged and left unknowing of any release time. I am not saying that I prefer one way or the other when it comes to chastity assignments, just expressing some thoughts about starting an assignment that includes not knowing the end date. I am interested to see if or how my views may change as this assignment progresses.

February Metics

Another month has expired and it is passed due to post my Metrics for the last month.  This month has been a bit of a different one for me because we have incorporated a new device, the first one in about 6 years that has the potential for true long term wear. Unfortunately there has been some issues with the new device which has caused me to be cage free for a couple of extended periods of time. Twice I had to be cage free for 30 plus hours to allow some healing. But we are going back and fourth between the two cages and things are getting better with the new one. And so, without further adieu, here is the pie chart…

Feb Chastity Metrics

To start off, I was a little surprised to see that I was locked into the new cage for more than half of the month (51%). I do like the new Rigid Chastity device and I know I was trying to force things which caused two times requiring for those cage free periods. Those two cage free periods both lasted about 32 hours each. the final 12 hours cage free came prior to my most recent Chastity assignment.  I do have to admit there is more cage free time in there accounting for cage free t&d but neither Locks nor I are the best at remembering to set the app prior to play.  Still, the amount of time i spent cage free accounts for a minimal time over all. Best guess would be 1-2% time over all.  It hasn’t been the easiest month for us over all, between the cage issues and being out of town. I spent more time out of my cage than I am used to.  But life happens.

Chastity Assignment 3 – Ended

  • This Assignment starts tonight at midnight (00:01 2 March 2017). I am not going to tell you the end date.
  • You will come to me and request T&D at least once in every 24 hours and those times run from midnight to midnight.
  • If T&D is denied when you request it, you are expected to request it again at a better time. Failure to do so will add 6 hours to your time.
  • You will come to me for cleaning and inspection every 3 days if you are wearing the SW cage and every 2 days if you are wearing the RC cage. Failure to do so will add 3 days to your time.
  • My initiation of T&D does not fulfill your responsibility to request it and will not earn you more time.
  • You can earn 6 hours  for requesting and getting T&D more than once in a 24 hour period.
  • You can request to trade 6 hours for cage free T&D. However I reserve the right to refuse.
  • You will be assigned tasks that will earn you time off.
  • You can earn time off for pleasing me. This is not limited to my sexual gratification.
  • You will log all T&D, inspections and cleaning, and times as well as infractions. Failure to log within 12 hours is considered an infraction and will add 12 hours to your time.

The following is a log of activities as we progress through this assignment.

  1. t&d requested and granted 2 march at 9:10 pm.
  2. Earned 12 hours off my time (cannot say what the new release time is obviously) for doing something above what is expected of me. (also fixed a leaky faucet and re rearranged the bedroom, cleaning as i went)
  3. T&d requested and denied 3 march at about 2100. Failed to do a follow up request. 6 hours added to my time.
  4. T&d requested at 0900 on 4 march. Woke up a little horny and while Locks was sleeping I put on the hood and bound myself, giving her a little surprise for when she woke up.
  5. Inspection requested 5 Mar at 0730. Switched devices and now am wearing the rigidchastity device.
  6. t&d requested on 5 march but not given. Locks has been feeling a little ill, though apparently did earn 12 hours off my unknown time for being “generally awesome”
  7. T&d requested 7 march at about 0430 till about 0500.
  8. Inspection requested and switched back to the SH cage at about 0500 7 march.
  9. Extra t&d requested 7 march at 2017 for about an hour. Was given cage free. Earned 6 hours off my unknown time.
  10. t&d requested 8 march at 1745 for about 20 minutes.
  11. t&d requested 9 march at 2330 for about a half hour. Was instructed to use the strapon on Locks and that i would earn 2 hours off my time for every orgasm I gave her. She managed 10 orgasms so i earned 20 hours off my time. Currently a total of 44 hours has been accrued off my assignment time
  12. t&d requested 10 march at 1040 for about 30 minutes. This was cage free t&d ( with inspection)  which as always means that at least my hands were bound to the bed.
  13. Earned 10 hours off my time for randomly fucking Locks with the strapon which caused 5 orgasms for her.
  14. Earned 1 hour off my time for, on my own, using a lint roller on her black dress to get the white dog hair off of it. Locks was pleased that i took the initiative prior to us leaving to help make her look hella good! Total time off is now at 55 hours.
  15. extra t&d given at a play party Friday night 10 march at a play party we went to. earned 6 hours, total is now at 61 hours off.
  16. t&d was provided while in a hotel room after the play party very early Saturday morning. A friend and I stood in the doorway of the bedroom and watched another friend of ours eat the hell out of Locks. It was very hot and I was very hard and horny especially while the girl next to me was tugging on my balls. I also went down on both of our friends for a good bit each all while locked up. I’m getting pretty hard right now thinking and typing about it. I think this should earn me extra t&d damn, now I’m fucking horny as hell and I’m gonna have to leave for work soon!
  17. Extra t&d requested 11 March. I can’t really give a time frame on this because we spend pretty much the entire afternoon and night after we got home from the hotel in the bed being highly horny with each other. A conservative guess would be that Locks had at least 20 orgasms yesterday. I of course didn’t have any and was caged the entire time (and obviously still am) I was told i earned 12 hours for everything we did yesterday with my running tally now at 73 hours off.
  18. t&d requested 12 march at about 0845 for about 15 minutes and yet another orgasm for Locks this morning!
  19. Inspection requested and given 13 march.
  20. t&d requested 13 March at about 1800 and lasted for about 30 minutes
  21. t&d was requested on 14 march but due to Locks being ill it did not happen. No time was taken off my assignment.
  22. t&d requested 15 march at 1015 for about 10 minutes.
  23. t&d requested 16 March at 2300 for about 20 minutes
  24. Inspection requested 17 March which coincided with the following day’s t&d session.
  25. t&d planned (which counts for a requested t&d) 17 March at 1245 for over 3 hours. Cage free t&d (not able to do long sessions with the cage on, the base ring gets too painful) At the moment we are just taking a break and will be headed back to it after we eat. And btw, holy hell i want to cum!
  26. Earned 12 hours for pleasing Locks by taking her phone with me while i ran a couple of errands in between play sessions to get some pokestops. Running tally at 85 hours off.
  27. t&d continued after dinner lasting for another couple of hours. It was more cage free t&d which as always means i was bound. Lost 12 hours for “manipulating” Locks to go to a place she did not want to go. Running tally is now at 73 hours off my time.
  28. Extra t&d requested 17 march at 2325 for about 30 minutes. Running tally now at 79 hours off my time.
  29. t&d requested 18 march at 0833 and lasted for about 25 minutes.
  30. t&d requested 19 March at 0835 and lasted for about 30 minutes
  31. Inspection requested 20 march at 1845
  32. t&d requested 20 March at 1845 following inspection. t&d was cage free for about 45 minutes with arms cuffed to the bed and legs suspended to the bar above the bed.
  33. Extra t&d requested 20 March at about 2230. Locks wasn’t feeling very well so it did not happen but I was given 3 hours for my “ambition”. Running total time off is not at 82 hours.
  34. t&d requested 21 March at 2300 for about 20 minutes.
  35. t&d did not happen on 22 March. We were both very tired and not feeling too well. No time was added for this one.
  36. Earned 3 extra hours for saying something very funny and clever. Total is at least 85 hours.
  37. t&d requested 23 March at 2000 and went off and on for about 2 hours.
  38. t&d requested 24 March at 0830 for about 35 minutes.
  39. Extra t&d requested the afternoon of 24 March for a couple of hours. Add 6 hours.
  40. Extra t&d requested the evening of 24 March for 57 minutes. Add 6 hours with the running total at 97 hours. This was cage free t&d and I was even allowed inside Locks and able to give her a couple of orgasms with the penis before i had to stop cause… holy fuck that felt good!
  41. Extra t&d requested the night of 24 March for about an hour and a half. This time there was the usual nipple sucking/pinching/biting but also a good bit of cane action on my ass, thighs and balls… Yup, my balls got good and caned last night. Running tally is at 103 hours.
  42. t&d requested 25 March at about 0800 for 20 minutes. Last night Locks hurt her hands from spanking me so our plans for kayaking today got changed to laying in bed and watching movies.  So yeah, I’m sure it’s going to be another long frustrating day for the penis…………..
  43. Extra t&d requested 25 march at 1402 for 20 minutes. Running tally at 109 hours.
  44. Extra t&d requested 25 March at about 1600 for another 20 minutes. Tally at 115 hours.
  45. Extra t&d requested 25 March at about 1830 for 15 minutes. Tally is at 121 hours.
  46. Early inspection requested, more for cleaning purposes.
  47. t&d requested March 26th at 0845 for about 25 minutes. There were at least 20 edgings done.
  48. Gave Locks a massage today, 26 March for about 30 minutes. Apparently she really enjoyed it cause she gave me 20 hours off my time. Running tally now at 141 hours. (And this is why I so rarely give people massages, I’m kind of good at it :/
  49. I was exempted from t&d on 27 March due to a long day at work.
  50. t&d was given 27 March for about 20 minutes and I was told that it counts as extra t&d since I had been exempted for the day. Tally at 147 hours.
  51. t&d requested 28 march that consisted of me (caged of course) wearing the strapon and fucking Locks for about 30 minutes. Though i lost 12 hours because i did not log the t&d within the 12 hour time frame. Tally now at 135 hours.
  52. Earned an extra 12 hours for reasons not to be disclosed. Tally back at 147 hours.
  53. t&d requested 29 march at 2013 for 27 minutes.  I was uncaged and was able to get the penis good and wet inside Locks for about 20 minutes edging myself numerous times without of course cuming. The last 7 minutes or so was spent with Locks continuing to edge me some more with one of our “personal massagers.”
  54. Inspection occurred 29 March at 2012 just prior to the above t&d.
  55. Was exempt from t&d for 30 March.
  56. Okay so, t&d happened this morning starting at 0638. While Locks was sleeping I started to rub her clit with my hand. For a few moments there was no response then as she started to wake up to the sensations I inserted a couple of fingers and did my thing leading her to a couple of orgasms.  Then i moved up the bed a bit so i could put the cage in her hand (which i was already as hard as i can get in the cage). At that point the next step of t&d started and continued until 0700 when the alarm when off. Afterwards I asked if that counted as t&d since I didn’t actually VERBALLY asked prior to all this, which would have meant that I would have to woken her up first which kind of defeats the purpose of wanting to wake Locks up with fingers buried in her pussy. So yeah, I was told that this morning did not count for my daily t&d but she was kind enough to give me three hours for pleasing her… Running tally now at 150 hours.
  57. Inspection requested 31 March. Switched out cages and now wearing the Ridgidchastity cage. We will see how that goes.
  58. t&d requested 31 March at 2315 for about 30 minutes. Consisted of me fucking Locks with the strap-on…
  59. t&d requested the morning of 1 April for about 30 minutes at about maybe 0730.
  60. Extra t&d requested 1 April at about 2300 for about 40 minutes. This session was mostly impact play that left my ass good and bloody. Running tally at 156 hours.
  61. I was exempt from t&d 2 April.
  62. Inspection occurred 3 April at around 2000. Still wearing the new ridgidchastity device and this time around things are going well. No pain and no bleeding.
  63. Locks is not feeling well and I was exempt from t&d for 3 April.
  64. Exempt from t&d for 4 April.
  65. Experiencing a little tenderness from the RC device. Switched back to the SH cage on 5 April at 0830.
  66. t&d requested 5 April at 0900 for about 10 minutes.
  67. T&d requested 6 April at 2230 for about 45  minutes. Included some lighter bondage.
  68. Inspection requested 7 April and switched back to the RC cage.
  69. Play party on 7 April which always counts for t&d.
  70. Earned 12 hours off my time for taking care of Locks while at a local event while she was sick.
  71. Earned 6 hours off my time for a joke our friend Joy will get when she reads this and asks about it. Running tally now at 168 hours.
  72. Exempt from t&d 8 april.
  73. Requested t&d 9 april at about 0910 for 20 minutes.
  74. t&d requested 10 April at 1720 for 35 minutes. So much edging, so fucking close but of course, Nope!
  75. Inspection requested 10 April at 1815.

Bloody Hell…

Over the past weekend Locks and I were out-of-state visiting her family. I have been going back and forth a bit between my new, rigid chastity, and old, steelheart, devices. The RC device  has been giving me some trouble. Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with the device itself but it may not be a good fit for me. With it being so small the PA hook part is a bit short for me and pulls on the PA hole some, essentially pulling on the hole stretching it out. So I have been wearing it for a few days at a time, using it to essentially gauge my PA hole so the device will fit more comfortably for longer term wear. The down side by doing this is that it ends up causing some irritation which causes swelling around the hole so it’s not having the desired effect right now.

Two days prior to leaving the state we had put my RC on. Those two days I didn’t have any issue with the discomfort from the PA hook. Our original plan was to switch back to the SH before we left but since it was feeling good I asked not to do so. I wanted to push it a little more hoping that the gauging was actually working. Once we got to our destination things were still good. By Friday morning I was starting to feel a bit of the discomfort. I have noticed that in the mornings I tend to feel this the worst, thinking it has to do with nocturnal erections. Then as the day progresses the discomfort lessens and sometimes vanishes all together. So that first day, Friday, this is what happened. Friday evening i was more active than usual playing with kids, wrestling, playing with hoops, tickle fights and pillow fights and the such. Well, with this abnormal activity for me i started feel the discomfort come back a little but didn’t think much of it. Eventually to bed we went (on a crazy uncomfortable pull out couch btw.)

Saturday morning showed up way too fast to find that this discomfort and become more of a pain, a continuous pain. It was different. Before long I (discreetly) requested the key so I could take my cage off. Just didn’t feel right. At the time getting the keys from around her neck couldn’t be done inconspicuously so we had to wait a while. About 4 hours later, when we had a moment alone I reminded Locks that I needed to take my cage off and was able to retrieve the key from her neck. I then grabbed the SH thinking I was just going to switch then out and headed up to the bathroom and locked the door. I got the SH all set up to put on then put the key in the RC, turned and pulled out the lock. I then removed the main part of the cage and… and.. and… phew that hurt! Though to myself, “that’s a first.” I then looked down and, “oh, bloody hell… there’s blood.” I grabbed some TP and blotted away what I could, knowing the worst was yet to come.

So, The PA hook for the RC is a static rigid part that incorporates into the cage.  A big part of the reason we went with this device. The concept is awesome and if fitted right I think it would be awesome. It’s hard to explain exactly how it fits. It’s kind of in an L shape with the long part of the L sticking out of the tip of the penis and the bottom shorter part going though the PA hole. The only downfall to this design is that in the corner where the two parts meet, the overall thickness seems to be greater in size than the 2 gauge that my PA is. So getting the hook in is a bit of a stretch to begin with. Knowing all this, I know that getting the hook out was going to be… a little uncomfortable to say the least but it had to be done. It took several tries. It was kind of like putting a butt plug in. One can’t really just shove a decent sized plug in all willy nilly. You kind of have to slowly work it in and stretch the anus for a moment. So, that’s kind of the approach I took. Still, once I got to the biggest point, yup, not fun. I stood there holding onto the sink for a minute.

Once my vision and mental capacity fully returned I wiped away the blood that was there and cleaned the penis. I then realized that with that much “irritation” and soon even more swelling that i really needed to at least get my 2g PA ring back in lest risk not being able to do so for a bit. That wasn’t horrible but was still not fun. I then contemplated trying to get by SH on, cause well I know locks 100%prefers me locked up (and really, so do I), but after actually a bit of self debate about it the nurse in me prevailed and I decided on the more prudent course of action and left the throbbing penis (in this case, definitely not the good kind of throbbing) uncaged. I packed everything up and went down stairs where i discretely showed Locks the blood tinged TP and told her that I was uncaged.

I am happy to report that after 30 hours and 20 minutes of being cage free I am back in the SH. Fortunately I am a quick healer. There is still a bit of pain if I pull on the PA ring but so far the SH hasn’t given me any issues.

So, I want to make something clear. With writing this I am in no way knocking RigidChastity devices. What i have is an extremely well made device and I do really love the design and love the concept of the PA hook. I believe that the sizing we had ordered is off. Still working out exactly where the issue is. Yes the cage is so very short but i don’t thing that is the issue. It has something to do with the PA hook. Either the Long part of the L is too short or the bottom part is too short, or maybe a combo of both. The penis when hard is pretty average in length but has more girth than average. I’ve not given up on the RC device at all. I will wear it more, if nothing else but to try to narrow down exactly what the issue is because we very well may order another one from them at some point.

Holy Hell, That’s Small!

As I opened a package that arrived today and unwrapped the contents I purposefully did not unwrap the main attraction but the extra i ordered with it. As I pulled it out of the wrapping I found myself feeling a little nervous right away. It was so short. After placing the extra ring and PA hook down I reached for the new cage and began to unwrap it. I think I even gasped a little as it fell into my hand as i thought “holy hell, that’s small!”  My new chastity cage is less than half the size of my steelheart that i had made back in 2010 I think. As I fumbled with it uncertainty started to set in as whether or not I was actually going to be able to fit inside the new RigidChastity Modular Chastity Device 2.

So yeah, he’s a picture of the two devices side by side that can probably explain my uncertainty a whole lot better than i could put into words.



January Chastity Metrics

So, Since the start of the year I have been keeping track through a handy app on my phone the amount of time I spend locked in chastity and without. There is still a whole lot more I need to get caught up on but i wanted to start here since last month has expired. I’ve actually been really excited about doing this and am glad i started doing so with the start of the year cause it’ll be really fun to see the end results with the conclusion of 2017! I say now that i am looking forward to those results but we will see how things go, as chastity assignments get longer and harder, just how “excited” (pun intended) I am in the end (can also place another pun here as well.)


So, to break down the simple pie chart included with this post…

  • Steelheart – wearing this device accounted for 96% of the month. A total of 712 hours out of 744 total possible hours for the month. This equates to 29.666667 days out of 31.
  • Free – For the month Locks’ cock breathed fresh air for a grand total of 29 hours and 24 minutes. I don’t think i need to break that one down into days 😉 Of those hours, prior to my first chastity assignment towards the beginning of the year I was allowed freed for 12 hours and told that I could cum as many times as I wanted/could. This 12 hours also included over night so I was a bit even more limited than a full `12 hours. During that time I was able to have 5 orgasms (that last one was pretty forced and kind of pathetic in ways and had next to no ejaculate). So, with that being said, minus that one extended period of free time I spent 17 hours and 24 minutes locked in chastity out of  732 minutes (minus that 12 hours) or 30.5 days.
  • Unaccounted – I’m trying to rack my brain as to where the unaccounted has come from. Being a total of 2 hours and 36 minutes. I believe that came from one instance that I didn’t properly restart my timer after a short period of freedom.
  • Orgasms – This month my orgasms totaled 9. As stated above 5 of those came in a 12 hour period. One came with the birth of the new year. Two came with the conclusion of my first chastity assignment which I previously blogged about under “14 days and vanilla sex”. The final orgasm for the month was allowed prior to the start of my most recent chastity assignment which occurred on the 26th of January.

I am planning on keeping track of more information as we go forward. One of those things is number times and amount of time I receive t&d and whether it is with or without my cage on. I am keeping a log of when these sessions occur under my post “New Chastity Assignment.” As per my instructions I have to post within 12 hours of the session happening. If I don’t then therefore it did not happen. I do have more to catch up on but I find this info very intrequing and wanted to start here. In an upcoming post, I do have some exciting news to share about a new chastity device that arrived today (after ordeing it on august 10th) which conveniently coincided with the 1st of Feburary so next months metrics might be interesting as to what and how much I will be wearing which device.

Orgasms, Then the Lack Thereof

Orgasms can be a so very odd when one is in chastity. Not just in play but living in it continuously.  Though my chastity experiences are ramping up, chastity is not overly new to me. But, I am still learning a great deal. Mostly my experience prior to Locks has been lock and forget and self management in the process.  This has taught me a great deal in regards to fit, and over all management of care and what not. The longest I’ve gone without an orgasm is close to three months. When that happened it wasn’t with someone who was actually interested in being a true keyholder, and so not capable of being a Domme in anyway, no matter how I tried to talk her into it. So, I can really relate to so many men out there that want so much more but cannot have it for so many various different reasons.  At this point, I am blessed (or cursed..) with finding someone who wants what i want.  But i digress.. Orgasms..

So, prior to Locks, even though I was in chastity, it was self chastity for the most part and overall I could choose when I had an orgasm.  And to be honest I can still have one on my own if I really truly wanted, but I don’t.  No cage prevents all orgasms. The Wand is a magical thing. Most of our t&d/edging happens with me in my cage. So we both know that I could if I really wanted to… well… I actually really want to most of the time but I’m not going to cause I can give that level of pleasure for myself to someone else.  Over the past year or so I’ve learned a lot in this regard.

So, all of that said, one thing I’ve learned about orgasms… seemingly despite without regard to the length of time denied, over a week, for the most part that first orgasm generally is not all that great. It feels good but in a lot of ways it is unfulfilling. which seems so counterintuitive. One would think that first orgasm would be so mind blowing but, for me, it’s not. In a lot of ways, ending that period is kind of a mind fuck. I want to cum but at the same time I don’t, because starting over also sucks. I want it to be longer and harder (not that kind of pun intended.) Want to know what about really feels amazing??

The second orgasm, if that happens. it’s the second orgasm after a release that is the best. I’m no longer fighting the desire to continue a denial period. The second one, I can give into and just truly enjoy without guilt, cause what’s done is done at that point. The guilt from the first one is about wanting to give more. To give more of myself, to “suffer” more in a sense… It is all still very confusing and difficult to properly put into words. Part of is that, yes I do want to cum, yet I so want to do more for you… But, does it really matter what I want, should it matter or shouldn’t it… Still figuring that all out.

New Chastity Assignment 2, Ended

  • This assignment will last 21 days and will start at 11:00pm tonight. 26 Jan 2017
  • You will come to me and request T&D at least once in every 48 hour period
  • You will come to me for cleaning and inspection every 3 days
  • Requesting and getting T&D more than once in 48 hours will earn you 6 hours off your time or you can earn a credit to request T&D without your cage.
  • My initiation of T&D does not fulfill your responsibility to request it and will not earn you more time.
  • Failure to request T&D or come to me for cleaning and inspection will add 7 days to your time.
  • You will log all T&D, inspections and cleaning, earned credits and times as well as infractions.
  • Failure to log within 12 hours is considered an infraction and will add 12 hours to your time.

Addendum: I had not intended on adding this to this assignment initially but since you are managing this well and its proving to not be to complicated, I’ve changed my mind.

Tasks: While you are on assignment, my needs will need to be addressed. So, I will give you tasks. They will be focused on addressing my sexual needs. They will sometimes be in the form of ‘a game’ and others be straight forward and you will be rewarded for completing them. This does not count toward your required T&D. I will assign you a task and tell you up front what your reward will be for completing it. Failure to complete that task is not an infraction and requesting a task is both welcome and will more than likely earn you a greater reward.  However,  you do not get to pick the task. All tasks will be logged and I expect open , honest commentary on it as well as the standard logging procedure.

The following is the log of events as we proceed though this assignment.

  •    t&d requested 27 Jan 2017 at 0850 and lasted 38 minutes
  •    t&d requested 29 Jan 2017 at.. i don’t know when it started.. maybe 5:00 pm lasted until, I don’t know, maybe 9:45 pm.. we did a while lot more than just t&d, though we did that too.  I got my ass beat till it was literally bloody. It’s been a good night. I have to post this, and want to but i just don’t have the words right now to articulate this  experience other than we are both very happy and satisfied..
  • t&d requested 30 Jan 2017 from 7:07 pm to 7:32 pm. For my reward for requesting extra t&d i choose to have a credit towards t&d without my cage.
  • failed to request t&d. 7 days added to my chastity assignment. New release date at this point 23 Feb 2017 at 11:00 pm
  • t&d requested 2 Feb 2017 at 9:25 am
  • Inspection requested on 3 Feb 2017 at 8:00 pm
  • t&d requested 5 Feb 2017 at 9:03 am
  • inspection requested 6 Feb 2107 at 9:00 pm
  • Extra t&d requested at 6 Feb 2017 at 9:00 pm.  given cage fee with my inspection and cleaning. t&d coincided with about 2 hours of play and beatings tied to the bed, hooded and blindfolded. For my reward  for requesting extra t&d i choose to have a credit towards t&d without my cage. up to two credits.
  • Task was given 6 Feb 2917 at about 11:00 pm to fuck Locks with a strap-on. earned 12 hours off my release date. new release time is at 23 Feb 2017 at 11:00 am.  I was of course happy to satisfy your needs but i do have to admit that transitioning from post play/beatings head space to aggressively fucking you with the strap-on was not the easiest thing to do.
  • Early inspection requested 8 Feb 2017 at 5:50 pm. A slight tender spot with the new device we are keeping an eye on. Next planned inspection period starts Saturday, 11 Feb at 11:00 pm
  • t&d requested 8 Feb 2017 at 5:53 pm. t&d given cage free following the inspection.
  • t&d requested 9 Feb 2017 at about 6:00 pm and denied
  • t&d requested 10 Feb 1017, start and end times unknown. Best guess total play lasted maybe 5-6 hours. Play/beating coincided with t&d.
  • Extra t&d requested 11Feb 2017 at 9:30 am until about 11:00. t&d coincided with more play/beatings (though not too heavy after 5 or 6 hours of play the night before). was hooded and blindfolded, tied to the bed. For my reward for extra t&d i choose to have a credit for cage free t&d.
  • Extra t&d requested 12 Feb 2017 at 8:40 am for about 20 minutes. For my reward i choose to have 6 hours off my time. New release date 23 Feb 2017 at 5:00 am
  • Task given 12 Feb 2017 at 7:00 to 8:30 pm. I did enjoy this task and look forward to doing it again at some point. reward for accomplishing this task has not yet be described.
  • Extra t&d requested and given which coincided with the above task. For my reward I choose 6 hours off my time. New release date set for 22 Feb 2017 at 11:00 pm.
  • t&d requested 12 Feb at 11:02 pm for about 30 minutes. As a reward for the number and strength of orgasms I provided to Locks, I was granted 12 hours off my chastity time. New release date set at 22 Feb 2017 at 11:00 am
  • Task given 14 Feb 2017 at about 8:00 pm till about 9:30 pm. For my reward i was given 12 hours off my chastity time. New release date set at 21 Feb 2017 at 11:00 pm.
  • Extra t&d requested at the same time as my above task. I choose 6 hours off my Chastity time. New release date set at 21 Feb 2017 at 5:00 pm.
  • t&d requested 15 Feb 2017 at 10:23. request denied, “I have a headache.” 😉
  • t&d requested 19 feb at 6:00 pm. Request denied, said maybe later. We were out of state visiting family and put the assignments on hold till we got back.  That is the reason for the gap between the 15th and 19th. We had been back only maybe 2 hours when i requested, both of us being pretty exhausted.
  • I currently have 2 credits for cage free t&d. I requested to exchange those credits for 6 hours off my time for each credit. I did so because we both have tomorrow off and by taking 12 more hours off that puts my release date at 20 Feb at 5:00 pm. Locks was not aware of this when i asked and she granted the exchange. Though she is happy with knowing that we will have to entire day off together for my release. Might end up being a long day for me tomorrow.
  • AWW YEAH BITCHES MY ASSIGNMENT IS OVER! (Though my cage is still on………….)

Free Ballin’

My last orgasm was this past Saturday, 21 Jan 2017. It’s only been 5 days thus far.  Since then I’ve not been under a chastity assignment but that does not mean I’ve not been caged. I pretty much always remain caged unless on the semi rare occurrences where Locks wants to do some t&d with me without it on. So for me at this point “Free Ballin” means since I am not currently under an assignment, this is as close to free ballin as I get, cause well her cock is perpetually locked away in a steel cage!

So, this morning I was allowed out of my cage for about 20 minutes. once I took the cage off and did a bit of hygiene Locks promptly duck taped my hands together and proceeded to tease me. I cannot tell you how wonderful it feels to get a proper erection! a full-blown hard-on without any confinement. and holy hell did i want to cum this morning! and holy hell I wasn’t allowed to.. grrr!  But a full erection like that was still lovely, even if I didn’t get to touch it or cum. So, there’s that at least.